Your Face Implodes

There is poetry in despair.

2006-09-15T17:45:00.000-07:00

Got another ear piercing. Cuteness!

Wake me up when September ends...

2006-09-14T13:30:00.001-07:00

I know I haven't blogged in two or three weeks. Thereby this record will never be complete. To catch you up...

I went to the mall with Ray.
Went to see The Covenant with Ray, Jeremy, and Colin. The movie was horrid but we had fun.
And since I got all As my first semester in Hi! School, I get my ears pierced again. (Okay, so I got an 89 in Algebra. Whatev.)

Wake me up when September ends...

2006-09-14T13:30:00.000-07:00

Not having mucj time to blog lately.

2006-09-07T04:01:00.000-07:00

Life is boring.

For what you did to me, and what I'll do to you...

2006-09-04T18:44:00.000-07:00

Went to the mall with Ray.

All the cracks they lead right to me.

2006-09-01T19:08:00.000-07:00

Boredom!

Nothing happened today but a prep rally. Sat with Colin and Ray.

Lurve and Piece and Harm on Thee.

2006-08-31T19:50:00.000-07:00

Visited the Ninachurch. Fun, but their youth leaders announced they were leaving. Rather awkward, everyone was sobbing but me...

Drama isecreem social today. Lovely entertainment, those peeps be talent.

What's the point on not conforming if it changes you?

2006-08-29T18:45:00.000-07:00

Today was blaaaagh. Got an 84 on that cum test if it interests you.

My history presentation went well. SOme kid brought in gyros and I was a happy girl.

Going to Nina's church tomorry!

WIll this week hurry up and be over?

There is poetry in despair.

2006-08-28T19:14:00.000-07:00

I have managed to gather male attention! My stalker has a crush on me, from what his friend told me. I don't want to say no but...I don't want to say yes either.

I didn't make the Drama thing. But Trent did so I'm happy. There's another audition on Wedesday but I do not plan on trying out. Going to Nina's church!

My Algebra cumulative test is tomorry. Cry!

And I have a history project. Yaay for late-night projects!

What follows me has the whitest lace about it.

2006-08-27T18:58:00.000-07:00

This was a rough weekend.

My choir carwash was canceled, but I got and finished New Moon. So depressingly sad but I want the next one. Now.

Had my usual girls bible study and took Nina with me. She came to youth too, but Ray and Claddagh didn't.

Nina is my sister whom I actually like.

I...feel...BEAUTIFUL!

2006-08-25T17:41:00.000-07:00

It's raining outside...

Today Claddagh came to school. Yaay her!

Got an 85 on my math test. Dad's killing me.

I auditioned for Drama's large group musical.I can't sing, I can't dance, and I don't know karate. Face it, I'm never gonna make it.

Trent will though. The only reason I tried out was to be his moral support.

And he sings like an angel.

Do I murder when I forget you from afar?

2006-08-24T19:21:00.000-07:00

Today was another rough day.

In first period I reviewed for my test tomorrow. I don't feel ready but whatev.

Second...choir. Fun fun, but I still have no friends.

Then I ate lunch and it was beautiful. Today was just me, Ray, and Trent. It was raining, but in the way it does with a clear sky and just barely raindrips falling. Ray and I danced. We got wet but it was worth it. Then Trent joined us and we all carried each other. Ray dropped me and we fell to the ground. It didn't hurt though and we were laughing all the way down. The bell rang during our in sync/out of tune rendition of Headfirst for Haloes. Ohh it was wonderful.

"Tonight, it seems like ages ago."

Dad got mad at me though, since the office couldn't find me during the lunch and we were half an hour late for my dentist appointment. Dad was really mad. But I would do it again.

The rest of the day was okay. I still hate English.

Wish me luck on my Drama musical tryouts! I have to dance and my song sample is a bit of Anthony by Nickel Creek. Exactly 59 seconds!

I'm the patron saint of your denial...

2006-08-23T17:37:00.000-07:00

Nothing is happening.

Went to a Freshmeat Prep Rally, twas oaky. I don't 'do' school spirit.

Yeh.

Poisoned hearts will never change...

2006-08-21T17:17:00.000-07:00

Life is so slow!

I am going to kill my sister for practicing her clarinet.

I saw Daniel on MSN this morning! Yay! I love Daniel!

So, who will follow? Who is the lead? I know we'll leave a stain, because we bleed as we dance.

2006-08-19T19:23:00.000-07:00

Went to the cinema with my friends Ray, Claddagh, Trent, and Kyndal. The film in question was Ricky Bobby: Talledega Nights. Not my favorite thing. The movie was perfect for my current residence in Redneckland, but that kind of crude humor does not appeal to me. And all the makeout scenes...bleggh. Poor Kyndal, she brought her little sister. Poor Ray, she brought her mom.

I ate Taco Bell for lunch.

Most of my day was spent working at my Mom's classroom. I really need the money.

Like scarecrows that fuel this flame, we're burning forever and ever.

2006-08-17T03:45:00.000-07:00

This week is soo slow. I did have a math test, made an 80!

But now for my last Dancing WIth The Stars update...

BENJI!

He won and I''m sooo happy!

But Ben really deserved it. He was pretty and he had a personality.

Everyone was dancing. Nothing could hurt us then.

2006-08-15T17:58:00.000-07:00

Life is going by at a SLUGPACE!

Got fillings on Monday, oww. School ice cream mentoring thing. My mentor is my cousin and she spent the whole time talking to her neighbor.

Today...nothing. Bleeh.

Don't ask me why... I <3 AFI.

2006-08-13T18:51:00.000-07:00

I totally have a lot of updating to do.

Yesterday was Grandma's birthday, so I went with her to the mall. I got a Precious Miseries doll for my sister, but I decided it was cute and kept it for myself.

Went to sis's dance performance, boredom!

Today was church with Ray and youth with Ray and Claddagh. Fun.

I saw a star beneath the stairs...

2006-08-12T06:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was weird...
I got to school an lent my Define The Great Line CD to Ray (formerly Rachel, but she's Ray now). She still has my copy of Twilight.

Then I went out to the bus. We were allegedly getting a larger bus, but we didn't. Schniffles.

I went to a photo show with Scarecrow, Curly, and Tuna. We met Piggy there. The food was delicious, the live entertainment not so much. It was cool though, cause Scarecrow won second place in the Youth division and Curly got first in the same.

And since I wore a skirt, shirt, and Frankenstein hat from my sister's Halloween costume a year ago, my shadow looked like a Southern belle. Go figure. Anyways, we photographed it. I looked pretty because you couldn't see my face.

Poisoned hearts cannot change.

2006-08-10T19:08:00.000-07:00

Today was normal. Yeah.

Went on major shopping. Sib rented a clarinet, I got some guitar picks. Oh yeah, and TWO ROCKING MOVIE POSTERS! An Edward Scissorshands and a Phantom of the Opera. I love movie art.

And I totally saw Missa today! Yaay I love her and she's so sweet and I miss her since she didn't go to my high school.

Today on my bus there was this sweet little guy. He lives on my block and he stutters and he has a hyper friend who kept saying "Talk to her more! Talk to her more!" Is something up?

Even if I'm as pretty as that old light-up reindeer lawn ornament out by our curb.

And what's the worst you take, from every heart you break...

2006-08-09T18:11:00.000-07:00

Today was an emotional rollercoaster.

I go to FCS, which was a up
and at lunch I find that Kyndal has disclosed a piece of information best undisclosed to its subject, which was a downer
then I went to Drama Club after school, which was up
and answered a question totally wrong, which plummetted down
and met the choir president who dresses fabulously (buckle boots!), up I go
and come home, read my email and find that I made a 100 on the math test, big up
but I misread it and made a 90, a little down,
but Dad gave me 20 dollars to buy songs with, a HUGE up,
and then it was all over.

Yeh.

Manic Panic!

2006-08-08T18:57:00.000-07:00

THREE TESTS TOMORROW! One in math, one in English, and one in history. Oh well.

Dad says I totally get Sing The Sorrow if I ace this test.

Okay, so I was practicing guitar (and really doing good, I can almost play Boulevard Of Broken Dreams if I do it really slowly) and my sibling decides to go to bed. As my door is closed, I do not know this. Then Mom comes and yells at me for not knowing.

Tuna asked me if my nails were fake. They're real.

Blaagh!

2006-08-07T18:04:00.000-07:00

MONDAY! AAAHG!

Today was dull. Got a locker with Claddagh though, which is all good. Chorus was fantabulous. I really like it.

Rode home with Colin :) I don't think he likes me very much, but I don't care! Really, I'm just a little freshman taggling along.

cry

2006-08-06T19:16:00.000-07:00

Kayce, I know you don't read this, but I miss you.

Went to church and saw Rachel (Claddagh slept in :P) We had ice cream.

For Youth we went to the sports complex. It was me, Rachel, Claddagh, Nina, and Nina's little sister. Good times throwing ice.

I hate school. Now for seven more days in the underworld of green and orange.

I looked unto you but found my empty home.

2006-08-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

I live for weekends.

Rachel, Claddagh, Crystal, and I went to the cinema to see that Ricky Bobby: Talledega Nights movie. My city being Redneck Capital Of The World, it became sold-out before my friends got their tickets, therefore we went to the mall instead. I got some wicked cool dangle heart earrings and Rachel made me try on pants in Charlotte Russe.

Tomorrow I go to church and see my Ray and Claddagh! Yaay!

I'll lay me down...

2006-08-04T19:58:00.000-07:00

I lived through my first three days. Bleegh, weekend!

Nina, love, I miss you. Can we get together soon? Tomorrow? I MISS YOU AND YOUR BLONDENESS!

I still hate it.

2006-08-02T19:20:00.000-07:00

Ate at Outback with my grandma, and got myself some adorable shoes. They're pink and black, with hearts outlined in lace and skulls on them. I call them Skullentines.

I hate high school

2006-08-02T14:14:00.000-07:00

Just got back from my first day. An overview:

Spent a half hour waiting in traffic.
Got yelled at in Homeroom for wearing gloves, and apparently my studded belt is also not uniform. I don't care, I'm still wearing it.

First period was Algebra 1, which I have with Salmon, Curly, and Rachel. I have homework in there.

Then was chorus. I know nobody but I really like the teacher.

Lunch came next. I ate with Crystal, Rachel, Claddagh, Kyndal, and Trent. Enjoyed myself.

Third period was World History. Teacher was great but I know nobody.

English was brotten. Nobody I know and I dislike the teacher.

Thankfuully Colin rides my bus so I got to wait for it with him. Even if the bus was late. And it was really hot. I met his crazy senior friend too, which was all good.

I. Hate. High. School.

2006-07-31T19:26:00.000-07:00

Went to Destin today with Tinkerbell and Claddagh. Rambled most of the time, but got fairy earrings.

High school orientation was rotten. I have Algebra first with Salmon and English last with Rachel. I'm gonna cry. Even better, I'm gonna die.

I can't think of a song line...

2006-07-30T18:53:00.000-07:00

Sorry I haven't been blogging. Nothing interesting is happening.

Met a new Rachel tonight (but I'll call her Claddagh since she is the only other person I've ever met with a ring like mine). We talked about random stuff. Like piercings.

I'm always around you to show that I care...but I don't know what for.

2006-07-28T19:23:00.000-07:00

Today was bleeeh. Spent most of it setting up Mom's classroom.

I'm never going shopping with teachers again. At least not Mrs. Casey. She's so whiny!

Since nothing juicy happened today, here's a list of my ragdolls.

Sally:An old Nightmare Before Christmas doll, my first one.
Megan: An Irish dancer doll I picked up on vacation at Blarney.
Lucy: A white and purple doll I sewed.
Nana: A doll I nabbed from my mom's teacher desk, since she was going to be thrown away. She repaid the favor by finding my Music=Life button. Her hair is grey and her shirt says "I'm not that old yet!" or something like that.

Frills and dolls!

2006-07-27T19:43:00.000-07:00

Why all the sudden dolls and frills? I'm having a girly streak.

Less than a week until I start Hi!School. I don't wanna! I'm scared! The seniors will eat me! WE HAVE TO WEAR UGLY ORANGE AND GREEN UNIFORMS!

The last day of Ninaness!

2006-07-25T20:36:00.000-07:00

Today I went to the mall with my friends. Didn't buy anything, but I still had craaazy fun.

Nina and I went to Youth and ate lasagna. We had late-night worship with a band called First Priority who are AWESOME. Nina and I decided we need a band called To Be Announced. That's the real name.

Oww my TEETH!

2006-07-25T06:23:00.000-07:00

The day before yesterday I went to the beach with the Youth Group.

Yesterda they all went to paint a house, but since nobody I knew was going besides my sister I stayed home. After that I went to help my mom set up her classroom. Then I went to the orthodontist and my teeth hurt now. Then I had guitar and started work on American Idiot.

Then it was youth, and Christina came with me. We ate pizza.

I am really tired. I couldn't sleep last night because MY TEETH HURT REAL BAD!

You'll be a ghost, I'll be your dreams. You'll float through me, and I'll disappear.

2006-07-22T19:29:00.000-07:00

Today must be Fit day because my dad had a fit at me because I don't believe in the good ol' American value of Stuff-Your-Face-Three-Times-A-Day-Even-When-You're-Not-Hungry-And-Swell-Up-Hugely. Other fits include: my sister when asked to lend some of her books she never reads to Mom's new classroom, myself at being chained to the house all day and not being able to see anybody I'm friends with, and Dad at Mom for being dragged into helping her work all day.

Full throttle now, the Milky Way can't wait.

2006-07-21T19:05:00.000-07:00

Did I mention I got now glasses yesterday? They're black and plastic and square.

Today was typical, but I did get some new ties and a belt.

Post! Kelloggs! General Mills! It's a cereal war.

2006-07-20T17:52:00.000-07:00

Today was uneventful. Went to the dentist, had gyros for dinner (YUMMY!)

Nina's going to Youth Week with me! Hooray!

Dream to Make Believe

2006-07-19T19:35:00.000-07:00

Saw a new dentist, he was really cool. He had televisions, so I watched Home & Garden.

Seeing as I have done many things to aid my mother in setting up her classroom, she permitted me to purchase 2 CDs. I got Dream to Make Believe by Armor For Sleep. I was going to get Sing The Sorrow by AFI, but they didn't have it so I got Answer That and Stay Fashionable.

The Armor For Sleep one is really good, but will never take the special place that What To Do When You Are Dead currently has in my heart. Answer That and Stay Fashionable is cool, but I prefer new AFI to old AFI. It's like apples and bananas...they're good in different ways, but I prefer bananas.

Keep quiet...nothing comes as easy as you.

2006-07-18T20:26:00.000-07:00

Did very little today (but bought jeans to go with new school uniform). Thereby, a bit of a fun about-me thing.

Lately I've been on this little 'what do I really believe' kick. Now for some lists...

What I believe in.
1.The whole Bible shebang.
2.Chocolate and peanut butter are soulmates.
3.People are not meant to be vegetarian.

What I do not believe in.
1.Myspace, Xanga, or anything like that.
2.Aliens.
3.Optimism.

What I wish I could believe in.
1.Myself.
2.Other people actually like me and are not just keeping me around because they pity me.
3.That I will ever see my grandpa who ran away again.

What I wish I didn't believe in.
1.Humankind's inability to create anything perfect.
2.That someone is out to get me.
3.Myself being fat.

Some of these are trivial, but hey. It's my thing.

Home...we're coming home again!

2006-07-17T17:59:00.000-07:00

Back from my vacation as of last night. It was lots of fun, but I'm sure glad to be home!

Time for a rehash!

2006-07-13T11:48:00.000-07:00

I just noticed...I missed my first whole year of blogging! Actually it was my previous post and I didn't realize it. Thereby... an update to my first post!

Okay. This is my glorious blog. All bow to it's power. I made it. It's about me. You want to know about me, so you read it. Anyways, I'm known byNish or LaceAndConverse. I'm a member at foremostly Albia2000, then Sims2Community, then MCRmy. My main hobbies are guitar, writing, and Irish dance. I can do a jig. My favorite gum is that Dentyne Mixed Tango kind, and I eat raspberry Altoids like popcorn. Woot. I used to be loved, but not anymore. Some of my favorite songs are "I'm Not Okay" by My Chemical Romance, "Love Like Winter" by AFI, and "Kind Of Perfect" by Armor For Sleep. I don't believe in MySpace or Xanga or anything like that. I am a mod at Albia2000, which fulfilled my dream of a year ago. I love life sometimes!

By way of vacation...let us say that I am princess of a land called Feelinglikecrud. My castle is called Hotelroom, and I am trapped there by a fierce fire-breathing dragon called Stomachpain. One day, my brave knight will rescue me. His name is Medication! But I bought some cool buttons. An Evanescence one, a Fall Out Boy one, two MCR ones, a Pretty Pretty Princess one with a girl in a black dress, one that says 'You won't like my music', and one that says 'I'm so happy I could die', which is how I feel right now.

Hugs to Daniel and Ben and Nina and anyone else who bothers to read this over the course of next year!

You all cost me 2 pounds!

Here's a pounds thingy...

£

Feel loved!

The nasshty english breakfast!

2006-07-07T00:30:00.000-07:00

You guys are worth so much to me, I dropped by in the hotel. You're costing me an EURO!

Life is good over here...yeah. Dad's ill and breakfast is gross. And my sister broke my lawn gnome and Dad's camera. So she's persona non grata.

And I got a cute pinstripe with scissors jacket. And a laceup shirt.

Hold me, you may drop me tomorrow.

2006-06-30T19:25:00.000-07:00

OMGWTFTTYLBBQROFLMAOGIBBERISHOMG!

I leave tomorrow! Sorry no blogs for 2 weeks! Unless I find an internet cafe!

EEE I LEAVE TOMORROW!

Ben! BEEEN!

2006-06-29T19:09:00.000-07:00

Watched Dancing With The Stars again. Sorry if I sound obsessive, but it's all I can do in the land of Home and...

THEY CUT BEN!

How dare they? Ben was positively adorable and so the best dancer of the elimination group. And funny.

Also bought the new Underoath CD. Yummy!

I know I can't dance.

2006-06-28T19:08:00.000-07:00

Watched "So You Think You Can Dance". I hope Benji and Travis make it!

I've always loved guys in eye makeup.

Otherwise, today was boring.

Warn your warmth to turn away...

2006-06-27T18:23:00.000-07:00

Today was bleaagh. Had to get up at 7 (!!) and go to IHOP. Then we took the dog to the vet and later me to the eye specialist. I picked out some pretty new black frames and the saleswoman lent me some fantasy books.

Getting really upset because I earned ten dollars photographing the downstairs. And now Itunes won't let me aquire the new Underoath CD.

If you believe in me how can I be dissolving?

2006-06-26T19:18:00.000-07:00

Two words describe today: Boring boring.

Went to guitar, started learning Big House and Get Down by Audio Adrenaline.

Six days...I can't wait.

2006-06-25T18:44:00.000-07:00

Today was blaaah. Ate at Grandma's though, was good.

My sister joined the youth group today. They already think she's the best thing since sliced bread.

Everyone's going to the party to have a real good time.

2006-06-24T17:41:00.000-07:00

Went to Buzzbee's birthday pool party. It was...
Me
Nina
Markle
Puppy
Salmon
Buzzbee
and one guy I didn't know who kept tipping my pool raft. It rained a lot but we went out after. Hung with Nina most the time, and sometimes Muchly (even though I'm just a friend now, I still get foot-tickling privleges!)

But this time we'll show them, we'll show them all how much we mean.

2006-06-23T16:46:00.000-07:00

I leave for London a week from tomorrow.

Ate at Outback with my grandmother and family.

Way too excited.

I'll miss you guys.

I'll try to keep a diary which I'll post up here later.

Hold me and tell me we'll burn like stars.

2006-06-22T18:48:00.000-07:00

Dad came home.

I went to Hi! School to take a Career Aptitude Test. Some of the following were my answers.

Artist (I can't cut a straight line)
Flight Attendant (I'm not a Barbie doll)
Model (still not a Barbie)

I don't put much stock in it.

This is what I brought you, this you can keep. This is what I brought, you may forget me. I promised you my heart, just promise one thing...

2006-06-19T19:51:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 9:45 and chilled in my PJs until 4:30. Then I dressed and went to guitar. Spent the rest of the day at the hospital with my dad.

Oh, and I made green apple Jello! It was pretty.

Gorgeous eyes shine suicide.

2006-06-18T12:04:00.000-07:00

Spent Father's Day in the hospital with my dad. Sniffle.

Otherwise, today has been le boring.

I bought myself Decemberunderground yesterday. Yum.

And she knows how to believe in futures.

2006-06-16T09:39:00.000-07:00

Went to the mall with Rachel and Crystal today. Got a pretty purple-and-black jacket, a Flyleaf CD, and a present for Laura. Laura might read this, so I'm not telling. I had fun though, so it was all good.

My daddy is in the hospital though. I don't know why.

We'll watch it burn together, on respective sides.

2006-06-15T19:17:00.000-07:00

I have never felt worse and still been on my feet these past two days.

It seems nobody else loves me in that special way. And I'm not interested in anyone, as the Christian emo straight boys are in short (none) supply. And if there was one, I would let Crystal or Rachel have him.

But when I remember how he treated Daniel or Kayce or any of my other darker friends, I remember why we split.

I can't get rid of things he gave me or memories I have. They're all that remains of when I used to be happy. I clutch the shreds.

He will still be called Muchly. Because I don't have the heart to change it.

Not feeling too good.

2006-06-13T19:01:00.000-07:00

I am single now.
And I hate it.
I thought I would be free
but I just feel sick.
I want a reunion
But I don't know how you
would take it.
I don't know if you would.
When I talked to you
you seemed nonchalant.
Like you didn't care.

I hope you did.

I think I'd love to die...

2006-06-12T19:09:00.000-07:00

Today was horrible.

I built up my mall trip with Crystal and Rachel all weekend. Well, you know what they say: the bigger they are the harder they fall. Crystal got pukey sick and I forgot to call Rachel so I was alone. Man I hate myself.

Vacation Bible School was also horrid. I lead a troupe of 5 year olds and my assistant is someone I detest. I was going to be with Alyssa dearest, but...

All heads bowed in silent prayer.

2006-06-11T20:44:00.001-07:00

I used to hate Flyleaf...until I heard the song called 'Cassie'. Do you believe in God? I'd say yes...so pull the trigger.

I can no longer say I've never seen a movie rated R. Stayed up late for Casanova, enjoyed it.

All heads bowed in silent prayer.

2006-06-11T20:44:00.000-07:00

And I would drive on to the end with you.

2006-06-07T18:42:00.000-07:00

Days pass by meaninglessly...

In my life, be lifted high...

2006-06-04T17:28:00.000-07:00

Today I got back from Camp Lee.

Day 1: 7 AND 1/2 HOUR DRIVE WITH ANNOYING PEOPLE! But we did stop at the mall and I went to Hot Topic and bought two buttons and some arm socks at Claire's. That night I met Zach and Mason from Montgomery. They introduced me to Meghan and Hadley and Daniel and Kirsten.

Day 2: Went canoeing with Zach and Mason, not including the daily schedule of small group and worship and etc. Salmon and Muchly get mad at me for having other friends and remain this way the entire week.

Day 3: Went on a service project with Daniel and Kirsten and Hannah. We scraped paint off an old house and power washed it. Then we went to TCBY and got isecreem.

Day 4:Daniel and Kirsten make me go on the zipline. I scream the whole way down and we go to the pool. At the pool we play Steal the Beach Ball.

Day 5: I say goodbye sadly. Then another 7 AND 1/2 HOUR DRIVE WITH CRAZY ANNOYING PEOPLE!

This does not include the daily schedule/people problems/much of anything. Tomorrow I go to New High School so I can take a 2 week class. I really want to see Rachel and Crystal again.

If any of you are reading this, I love you all! Keep it up with those pigeon noises Meghan! Stay cool Daniel! I'll see you all next year! Hugs!

Bleeh.

2006-05-28T18:35:00.000-07:00

Went to church. Ate lunch at Grandma's. Went to youth. Today was blaaaa.

But would you kill me in my sleep?

2006-05-27T19:51:00.000-07:00

Today was blaaah. Babysat the same little girl (henceforth called Cinder). We watched Dora.-

PHWOARRR! PHWOARR!

2006-05-26T19:46:00.000-07:00

Today was boring...Salmon's suprise party was canceled.

I got Tuna, Shelleybee, Scarecrow, Curly, and Muchly (of course) to go with me to a concert. In the paper it said Christian Rock. In person it was Christian Heavy-Death-Metal-Screamo types. We left before the first song because Tuna and I were the only ones who liked it.

Thereby we went to the beach and Sonic. I am soootired.

Mostly Harmless...

2006-05-25T19:15:00.000-07:00

Visited the mall today. Yeah.

Came home and watched a show called "So You Think You Can Dance". It was pretty good. My favorite contestants were the recovering alcoholic and the guy with the semi-mohawk. They were cool.

Why would someone "wake up, wake up on a Saturday night..." Did they sleep all day?

2006-05-24T18:30:00.000-07:00

I have a strong urge to listen to Hilary Duff. I don't know why, because they're my sister's CDs.

Talked for an hour on the phone with Nina.

Muchly took me mini-golfing to this touristy place called Coconut Cove. We golfed the second course, did the maze, and golfed the first course. He royally beat me on the golfing and we did the human maze together. Then we ate at Subway. His brother drives crazy.

It gives the weak flight, it gives the blind sight...

2006-05-23T19:03:00.000-07:00

Shopped all day. Got loads of black skirts. I'm tired.

Muchly and I were gonna minigolf, and I was going to Nina's. Both got canceled.

I had a orthodontics appointment and dance photos. I get braces in a week or two.

There were these adorable pajamas I bought that have pink and green lawn gnomes and say 'hanging with my gnomies". So cute!

You look so good in blue, you look so good in blue...

2006-05-22T19:21:00.000-07:00

Today was blah. Muchly invited me mini-golfing, but I had guitar. Maybe tomorrow.

Seek the REAL truth.

2006-05-21T18:57:00.000-07:00

Went to church just like any good girl. The sermon was about the Da Vinci Code. Therefore, family and I went to watch it today.

It's like the movie National Treasure. The connections are there, but there's nothing connecting it. And the self-flagellation was creepy.

At Youth, two of my friends disliked my hair. Muchly and Salmon. Oh well.

So wear me like a locket around your throat. I'll weigh you down, I'll watch you choke.

2006-05-20T19:24:00.000-07:00

I was alone all day again. Watched Memoirs of a Geisha. It was sad and a little...well...how do you put this? Yeah, explicit...

Scarecrow was gonna see my hair. Guess not.

Haven't you people ever heard of closing the bleep-bleep door?

2006-05-19T18:30:00.000-07:00

I lopped most of my hair off with sewing scissors in a freakishly Mulan scene. Now it touches the middle of my ears. Parents are NOT happy, me being unable to go to Camp Lee is possible (as is grounding interminably). Oh well, I went to a salon, it looks cute, I love it.

Tuna and I went with 21 of Mom's teacher friends to a Tallahassee bookstore.

Don't stop if I fall, and don't look back.

2006-05-18T18:07:00.000-07:00

When I woke up today I was alone. From 1o AM to 4 PM I was alone. Tuna called me and we talked for 45 minutes. Then he went to get a guitar. I ate pizza for dinner. Then I went to his place and we jammed.

I miss Kayce and Rachel already.

Never again, never again...they gave us two shots to the back of the head and we're all dead now.

2006-05-17T18:20:00.000-07:00

My last day of middle school. Spent most of it with Kayce (formerly Casey), Rachel, Nina, Crystal, and Missa. IT was a sobfest between Nina going to Rutheford, Missa to Bay, and Kayce to Haney. I cried lots. But they all have my phone number so it's slightly better.

You are never coming home, never coming home...

No one an find the rewind button, girl.

2006-05-16T19:09:00.000-07:00

They did not play Pomp and Circumstance at the 8th Grade graduation. They played the Hallelujah chorus. Well, it sounded like it.

I got 2 awards.

Tomorrow is my last day as a middle schooler. Mom got me a tea set, celtic jewelery, and Flowers for Algernon. I already read the book. I cried.

Everyone play Pomp and Circumstance!

2006-05-16T04:24:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was spent at yearbook signing. Naturally I forgot my yearbook, so me and the emo kids hung out beneath the football bleachers.

Sacrecrow got the Nerd Athelete award for being in 2 sports and having the highest GPA. Woohoo!

Today is my 8th grade graduation ceremony! It's been a long and hard road to get here. But now that I am, I want to go back.

The Ballad Of Blackfingered Nish

2006-05-14T18:24:00.000-07:00

Ugg, nail polish is soo runny. I'm tired from the beach.

Am I losing myself?

2006-05-13T19:13:00.000-07:00

Muchly's birthday is tomorrow. According to an email he sent me, he got a cell phone. We traded numbers.

Saw Hoot today with Scarecrow and family. It was pretty good.

Ate at the Bonefish Grill for dinner. Yummy, but it took a while.

Since my grandma was absent for my mom's birthday, I had the good fortune of being able to run for candles at the Dollar Express. I also got black nailpolish. Was told I can't wear it on my fingers, so I'm gonna paint them later.

It must be bad when you must get your rebellious kicks by painting nails.

Violence isn't the answer, it's a question. The real answer: Heck yes!

2006-05-11T21:12:00.000-07:00

Exit exam was hard.

Babysitting Muchly's siblings was easy.

I'm off to bed.

Food fight!

2006-05-10T17:33:00.000-07:00

A food fingt was the only real excitement of the day. Some kids got suspended. It was funny. I got lettuce on my eyebrow.

Muchly spilt milk on me.

As my memory rests, but never forgets what I lost...

2006-05-10T04:58:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was boring but at my sister's Talent Show was a boy dressed and eyelinered who lip-synced to Wake Me Up When September Ends and air guitared and it was ADORABLE! If I have a son I want him to dress like that if he consents.

If this is what you want then fire at will!

2006-05-08T18:25:00.000-07:00

Guitar class was amusing. I had fun. Then I came home and prepared for Geometry tests and my final exam in that class on Thursday. So tires.

Are we the waiting?

2006-05-07T18:55:00.000-07:00

Today was bleh also. Slept in too late for church. Dance performance at 1, did okay. Went to youth from 4 to 6. Listened to the graduating seniors. Bye guys. We'll miss you.

I'm. So. Tired.

2006-05-06T20:43:00.000-07:00

Woke up at nine, dance practice until 1. Performed at the mall. I was in 1 out of 2 dances. Then I went to a Water Day for the Youth Group girls. Was fun. Sibling's dance recital not so much.

In the middle of a gunfight...

2006-05-05T19:52:00.000-07:00

Aaugh my leg hurts.
Today was the school talent show. My favorite act was Missa, Nina, and Trent. They sang Think Of Me form Phantom. It was yummy. The softball team kept kneeing me in the back.

Don't let me drive the boat. I'll cause a shipwreck.

2006-05-04T18:40:00.000-07:00

FIELD TRIP TO WATERPARK!!!

On the way up Rachel and I listened to music videos and lip-synced to MCR. Then when we got there we joined with Crystal and rode the raft ride (one of only two open attractions). Then we tried to go to the flume ride, but I slipped and hurt my knee in a skinning fashion, so we stopped for a while and ate lunch. While they had isecreem, I rode with Nina and her grandpa on the aforesaid raft ride. Then I rode the raft again with Crystal and Rachel. Then we rode the flume, and changed into clothes. The ride home consisted of music, as did the rest of the school day.

Hallelujah, lock and load!

2006-05-03T18:25:00.000-07:00

Today was boring. Church was so-so. Bleh.

Well look who's dying now.

2006-05-03T03:56:00.000-07:00

School trip to the beach. Yummy. Forgot to wear the bottom of my swimsuit, so I spent the whole time throwing Funyuns at Muchly and writing book reports with Nina and Bwilly. Sunscreened my front so it's okay, but my back...ow.

So gimme all your poison, and gimme all your pills, and gimme all your hopeless thoughts and make me ill.

2006-05-02T04:17:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was boring. I had to skip guitar an McDonalds put too much salt on the fries.

But something haunts me. To understand this you must know that a)I skipped first grade, and I am younger than most in my classes and b)That I had lots of trouble in Algebra 1 last year.

I was snooping through my dad's emails looking for a paper I had to print, when I saw a folder labeled 'School Emails'. Naturally, I looked. I know I'm getting a biased view (these are the emails sent by my parents), but I now know why the school traded my math classes and why my parents were always having the meetings. They thought I was physically too young to handle Algebra. This bothers me because I have been on-level with my peers in everything else.

I had nightmares about the school board last night.

I'm a renegade!

2006-04-30T18:56:00.000-07:00

Went to church. Spent the afternoon looking for my sister's camera. Never found it. Then went to the sports center for youth group. Scarecrow, Curly, Shelleybee, Muchly, Flying V, Lil Momo's dad, and I kicked a soccer ball. I tried to impersonate a Rockette and fell into a picnic table on a concrete floor. It hurt.

Please call me only if you are coming home.

2006-04-29T19:03:00.000-07:00

Hunger Homeless is a thing where the Youth Group fasts for a day and sleeps in cardboard boxes on the playground. I decorated my box with bats and cobwebs. After our worship activities, we all went to the Relay For Life. We got kicked out. Then we went back to the church. It was cold outside, but I slept a little. Then it was cold when I woke up. That day we washed cars. Then we finished our fast with a pigout at Fire Mountain grill. I ate four plates and now I feel really really sick. My mommy is sick too. Bleh.

Mothers be good to your daughters too.

2006-04-27T18:26:00.000-07:00

Did not go to school today. Instead, I went to my mom's school for Take Your Daughter To Work Day. I helped second graders. It was fun.

insert Jaws theme

2006-04-26T19:11:00.000-07:00

School was boring. Same old same old. Youth was the same. I went swimsuit shopping and got a purple and black ruffly one.

Me:None of these are modest and black!
Sis:Hey, check this out! *shows a pink bikini with a tiny top*
Me:No.
Sis: MOMMY, SISSY ISN'T BEING REASONABLE
Me:Go away.
Sis: MOMMY!

Jimmy's delicous hamburgers!

2006-04-25T18:06:00.000-07:00

I've been lazy on my blogging. Anyways, today I had a field trip! I went to a local elementary school to read stories to kindergarteners. My story was 'Horton Hears A Who' by Dr.Seuss, and I wore a matching shirt. None of my students listened to me. Then we went to the mall. Hannabee and I went to Hot Topic. I got some skull and heart shoelaces, a Music = Life pin, and a plain black armband. Then I went back to school. Nina, Rachel, and I passed a tin of Sour Punch Straws around our desks and got really sugar high. Then we passed notes the whole time about how they're the best drug ever. And about how I got Nina hooked on sugary candy. And about how I'm writing poems for my darker friends. And mutton stew. Then after dance class, my mom sprung something on me: I was going with my sister, one of mom's third grade special education kids, and the student's fifth grade sibling out to eat. It was really quite enjoyable. But the music in the burgerplace was nasty. But I dosed myself on good stuff when I got home. They're still over, but I have been released from hostess duty.

And Ben (not the one at my school, just a very dear online buddy), I hope your sister is okay.

We're coming home again!

2006-04-23T18:48:00.000-07:00

Spaghelli dinner went well. Impressed Muchly's family. Did not spill food on myself. My Italian Chef act was a hit.

Cystic Fibrosis walk got rained out. I painted Vacation Bible School backdrops at the church. They gave us chips and salsa and Hot Tamales.

I had a dance performance today, it was horrible. Imagine 8 girls in poofy dresses dancing on a stage the size of a VW Bug. And one of my 3 dances got cut for time.

But Grandma made me delicious sweet potatoes!

And Muchly's birthday is May 14 and I have no clue what to get him. Sniff sniff.

Boys aren't worth crying over. The one who is won't make you cry...

2006-04-20T18:39:00.000-07:00

Okay. Mother and Father are going out of town, and I am consequently living with Grandma in no-internet land. So I'm just going to tell youse what I'll be up to.

Friday: Spaghetti dinner. I blogged this yesterday.

Saturday:Cystic Fibrosis walk with Scarecrow and Nina and Muchly and others. It will be good.

Saw Casey. Determined that life is unfair. Why? He's pretty and skinny and I'm not.

You are never coming home, never coming home...

2006-04-19T18:59:00.000-07:00

Went to school. Saw Casey.

My Bible Study leader had a reccomendation against the high school chorus. Mother hates to listen.

Otherwise at church, I have a talent (lack) act in the spaghetti dinner!

We're all gonna dress like chefs and sing 'On Top Of Spaghetti' off-key.

Muchly is playing piano for a separate act.

I loaned Bwilly my MCR CD. I miss it. I may have trouble sleeping tonight.

It's just a vacant three by four...

2006-04-17T19:23:00.000-07:00

Went to school. Saw Casey.Went to highschool induction. Got an ugly dolphin pin. Went out to eat with Muchly. Went to grocer with Muchly. Went home and showered (not with Muchly.)

_____________
The Language Arts Gang

-Me
-Nina
-Rachel (She's sweet. Another poet/MCR fangirl/Twilight fan, we get along well. She's coming to the same highschool as me, but she wasn't there. Instead, she was in Hawaii getting a Medal Of Honor for her late father. I miss her. I could never deal with what she is.)

Buzzbee and Bwilly are in it too, but they're male so they're not full members.

THere was a line in the hymnal this morning I liked, but I forgot it...

2006-04-16T18:27:00.000-07:00

Today was good.
Parents got me PEEPS (breakfast, lunch, dinner, munch, and all other meals of the champions)!
And new headphones (Dad's a pod person too, he gets why I need them).
And a Rebecca St.James CD (If I Had One Chance To Tell You Something).
And I found safety pin earrings in my room!
Went to the bookstore, got books.

Come on and celebrate the ressurection of our Lord!

He has Risen!

2006-04-15T18:14:00.000-07:00

Worked at the church Egg Hunt. I am horribly sunburnt. Spent the rest of the day with Muchly. A good part of that was at Nina's. Then we came home and had baanana pancakes.

Dag, my headphones are broken. Good thing it's the side my wonky ear is on.

My preciousssss...

2006-04-14T19:03:00.000-07:00

Watched the first 3/4s of The Fellowship Of The Ring.

Gimili is desirable.

Gollum is all mine.

Geroff!

Your Face Implodes

There is poetry in despair.

Wake me up when September ends...

Wake me up when September ends...

Not having mucj time to blog lately.

For what you did to me, and what I'll do to you...

All the cracks they lead right to me.

Lurve and Piece and Harm on Thee.

What's the point on not conforming if it changes you?

There is poetry in despair.

What follows me has the whitest lace about it.

I...feel...BEAUTIFUL!

Do I murder when I forget you from afar?

I'm the patron saint of your denial...

Poisoned hearts will never change...

So, who will follow? Who is the lead? I know we'll leave a stain, because we bleed as we dance.

Like scarecrows that fuel this flame, we're burning forever and ever.

Everyone was dancing. Nothing could hurt us then.

Don't ask me why... I <3 AFI.

I saw a star beneath the stairs...

Poisoned hearts cannot change.

And what's the worst you take, from every heart you break...

Manic Panic!

Blaagh!

*cry*

I looked unto you but found my empty home.

I'll lay me down...

I still hate it.

I hate high school

I. Hate. High. School.

I can't think of a song line...

I'm always around you to show that I care...but I don't know what for.

Frills and dolls!

The last day of Ninaness!

Oww my TEETH!

You'll be a ghost, I'll be your dreams. You'll float through me, and I'll disappear.

Full throttle now, the Milky Way can't wait.

Post! Kelloggs! General Mills! It's a cereal war.

Dream to Make Believe

Keep quiet...nothing comes as easy as you.

Home...we're coming home again!

Time for a rehash!

The nasshty english breakfast!

Hold me, you may drop me tomorrow.

Ben! BEEEN!

I know I can't dance.

Warn your warmth to turn away...

If you believe in me how can I be dissolving?

Six days...I can't wait.

Everyone's going to the party to have a real good time.

But this time we'll show them, we'll show them all how much we mean.

Hold me and tell me we'll burn like stars.

This is what I brought you, this you can keep. This is what I brought, you may forget me. I promised you my heart, just promise one thing...

Gorgeous eyes shine suicide.

And she knows how to believe in futures.

We'll watch it burn together, on respective sides.

Not feeling too good.

I think I'd love to die...

All heads bowed in silent prayer.

All heads bowed in silent prayer.

And I would drive on to the end with you.

In my life, be lifted high...

Bleeh.

But would you kill me in my sleep?

PHWOARRR! PHWOARR!

Mostly Harmless...

Why would someone "wake up, wake up on a Saturday night..." Did they sleep all day?

It gives the weak flight, it gives the blind sight...

You look so good in blue, you look so good in blue...

Seek the REAL truth.

So wear me like a locket around your throat. I'll weigh you down, I'll watch you choke.

Haven't you people ever heard of closing the bleep-bleep door?

Don't stop if I fall, and don't look back.

Never again, never again...they gave us two shots to the back of the head and we're all dead now.

No one an find the rewind button, girl.

Everyone play Pomp and Circumstance!

The Ballad Of Blackfingered Nish

Am I losing myself?

Violence isn't the answer, it's a question. The real answer: Heck yes!

Food fight!

cry

insert Jaws theme